' " i see and i blow;

100 days seemed so fast..
i wun say it felt like ytd..
cuz i juz saw the video..
the video of tat day..
i said it doesnt felt like ytd..
as feelings ar numb..
saddening.. but really felt quite numb..
as if like.. i dun wanna think bout it..

missing some ppl greatly..
but sure.. they wun feel tat much..
i dunno how to start.. or even end..

hopefully days can be rewinded..
if not past more quickly..
i do not wish to be at cdc..
i do not wish to feel numb..
i do not wish to be depressed..
i do not wish to be only thinking bout the pass..
i do not wish to think too far ahead..
i juz wanna get out of cdc..

i miss peads..

hopefully... i truely wanna fooget everything..
and juz live my life again..
and not only to me..
but.. every1..
dun think is only me..
maybe my brother..
my parents..
but i shall be straightforward...
to ppl in lco too.. or ppl around lco..

u said its impossible to change..
but is it true is IMPOSSIBLE??
or is it truely u do not wanna change..
excuses does not work..
and u can nvr change 1 fact..
ppl are always changing..
so dun bother sticking only to the pass..
times are need for u to rmb both bad and good memories..
but does not mean u hav to live in the memories..
live ur life... only rmb memories..
dun rmb too much of the feelings..
only wad had happened.. and treat it like a story book u finish reading..
tats is good enough.. to keep u away from further probs..
stop u from thinking too much...

i bubblied around at,,
wished u are with me 11:23 pm