call me lut lut ^^]
ur precious little turtle
completing my little life journey XD~
TAGGIE
RANDOMNESS
memories are locked...
people come and go..
tats how life is..
i will forget..
i will remember..
for i am only a human..
i am not nobody..
i dun wish to be perfect..
i only wanna be me..
mokona told fye:
Just smile and be happy, no one will hate you for that
hey!! i am suppose to be sleeping now.. but here i am blogging...
but this time.. not like tat time le...
am shifts are tiring... need wake uplike 5am in the morning.. and leave home at 5.30am.. i am so not used to it... other ppl maybe but not me...
lalala... SACH is far.. but so far.. work is quite fun lahz i shld say.. after all the pace its like slower than ttsh... and really have the time to do the case studies and stuff.. haha..
i am so off to bed le.. tml still am shift... can't wait for PRCP to over.. even though it havnt even started.. but the thought of 12 weeks of PRCP... its like killer!!!
and ange.. cool down kaes?? rest more...
and this is something i feel... i am getting to hate these attachments.. it somehow break me away from my frens.. as if i have no freedom at all.. some how..
lalala....
i bubblied around at,,
wished u are with me 10:24 pm
(.") Sunday, October 28, 2007
okay.. thx for those who did care.. thank ange and noch for tat special post.. =DD.. tat post.. i dun wanna say much...
only there are times where i think too much... i was plain tired.. so alot went thru my mind...
=DD
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wished u are with me 2:04 pm
(.") Thursday, October 25, 2007
viewed;;[some1 pls bug lut to sleep now ]
lala.. geron postings at SACH...
tml i am like having a 8-4 shift at ttsh and i am still not asleep..
okay.. i dun wanna talk bout the time.. juz tat i have beening thinking in my mind... (duhh!! we use minds to think.. not our hands or some others parts) tat if i am going to tell every1.. tat this 19 years 5 months and 26 days i have been living my life in lies... will any1 believe?? so here i am saying i have lived my life of lies... almost everything of me are lies.. the lut u ppl noe are lies... the lut u noe had been bluffing all u peeps out there.. the life he chose.. the path he took.. making his frens read him like a picture book... a book easily understandable...
and the truth is.. i am tat type of book.. a book tat most ppl think tat its the easiest type of book to read... but i am now going to tell u... tat picture books are the MOST difficult to read!!...
u want to noe why.. u may see the pic and understand.. but for ur info... different ppl sees the picture and they have different views.. but most views will have those similar points... but in those points.. picture worth a 1000 words... so are u sure tat the book truly mean like this??
i am tired.. its seems not tat i have been decieving others... i would say myself is included..
the usually bright lut... is he the real lut?? some how.. it was all a cover to cover this dark in him... the usually happy-go-lucky lut?? plainly a cover for his lonely weakness... the positive lut?? mask for him to think he hopelessness.. the bubblyness of lut?? to keep others going... but he nvr felt tat way for himself.. the heart of lut?? is now only filled with sorrow, fear and hurt...
if i had lied my yrs thru... all i can say is dun trust me... somehow.. my trust to others have been depleted... the trust i used to have.. seems all.. dropped.. if i lied about everything?? about the ppl i loved?? about the frens i cared?? if all was an act?? wad will u ppl do?? if lut is not the lut u ppl have known these days/months/years... will u forgive him for his lies?? even he choose to lie more?? i only noe he wishes not to lie anymore.. but fears are stopping him... he may seemed social... deep inside.. he is starting to hate ppl to be in his comfort zone... so from u all to the lying lut.. if lut says he is doesnt want to have any frens.. will u believe him?? if lut says the person he truly loved was the 1 he truly hated.. will u believe?? if lut says he was nvr cool-tempered.. he was always angered when things ain't his way.. u believe?? if lut says he was lying bout everything.. believe?? if lut chooses not to care bout every single thing.. will u ppl care for him?? worry why lut is like this now?? wished he could talked to u??
dun bother telling me the answers.. the truth are truth... ur answers are urs... u can choose to bugg me bout anything.. i only have 1 phase... lut wishes for tat 1 person will care...
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wished u are with me 12:05 am
(.") Thursday, October 18, 2007
viewed;;[being a loner for a day.. -.- ]
its kinda not me.. but i did it.. went out today.. alone... watched a movie alone.. at orchard walking shopping around alone... its veri not me.. but i somehow did...
left home at bout.. 1420h.. was think to rush to cine by 2.45pm de.. but end up i gave up.. took train down rather then waste money on cab.. after all... i am not meeting any 1.. and the movie i watched still got 5pm air de.. so reached cine at bout near 3 le.. got the tickets 1st... and lunched after tat.. went wang xin hongkong cafe.. and had black pepper beef cheese baked rice and the ice hk milk tea.. it was quite filling.. during this trip out.. alot went thru my mind.. i want tothem out say out.. but not now... i wish to keep them within me.. but it is related to me being alone... wahahhahaha watched the chick and larry show.. quite nice lehz...
oh ya.. went heeren walked around a bit... b4 the show.. then after show.. i went walking around taka.. wanted to buy the bean paste bun de!! tat bun its the same bun as the bun doremon loved!! (~^.^~)
but nvr buy.. cuz in the box.. bout 5 or 6 piece $15 lehz!! superly expensive lor... but walk till bout 7 30 like tat went popular got a pen and a notepad.. and i got a milubing cd.. their song are nice... juz hope i dun get lost after listening to their song.. after they are the 迷路兵.. haha -.- lame joke..
and came home dinner lor.. =DD and when my mom came home!! she got the mini bun!! the 1 i saw.. but smaller.. and she was at taka after i left.. lolx...
i dunno y.. i may force myself go loner trips out.. after all ppl have their own activities.. and mostly couples.. so.. i better not bugg them to call me out every time they do.. =DD
somehow blogging bout today's trip.. i kinda feel relieved.. something like a break from my thoughts.. even thou i was mainly thinking bout them..
lalala.. and tml from 9 am to 6pm i not internet assess.. starhub having having their doing some maintance or something.. nites ppl..
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wished u are with me 11:23 pm
(.") Tuesday, October 16, 2007
viewed;;[i feel truly tired.. ]
b4 i go on bout tiredness...
i want to wish ange a big happy bdae.. =p went swensen's on sat and today kfc.. i am lazy to go on bout it.. other then.. go out.. meet them.. walk a bit.. makan then.. walk a bit more.. then home.. but i did hav a good time..
tired?? not from those.. but tired of staying at home whole day and rot.. rot in front of comp.. watching randomly at crunchyroll.. in to neopets and got damn bored even more.. off comp.. ps2-ed.. played not 15 mins.. boredom..
so go out?? easy to say.. no place in heart to go.. and worse.. no one to accompany.. i am the worse being outside alone.. worse then staying at home and not step out for a whole week.. i will juz ponder stuff in mind.. wonder around to no special place..
i juz did.. i was wondering round j8 after dinner with ange and the rest.. after j8.. went get bubble tea le.. and walk near home.. went playground.. swing abit.. then... walk bout 15 mins later then step into lift to reach home.. strange rite?? juz din have the mood to come up 1st..
-.- maybe trapped at home too long.. became mentally tired.. after all i only wanted to meet ppl i wanted but somehow.. i nvr have the chance??
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wished u are with me 9:48 pm
(.") Saturday, October 13, 2007
viewed;;[yawnz ]
lala.. i confess!! i confess i was lazy blogging.. with the whole week able for me to blog but i did not.. this whole week i was literally at home... not even a single step out till this morning..
went to upper pierce walk walk see see.. haha... here is a nice morning view of it.. took only 1 pic.. put its nice.. haha..
now there is more i wanna go places for the following week.. i am so going to bugg ppl to go.. let me list out: -ice-skate -discovery centre -ttsh (for collecting a book and maybe go find some ppl) -maybe orchard area -maybe amk hub -kovan makan -kbox?? maybe..
tats so far.. still wondering.. shld i go meet ange they all?? haha i end this post le..
oh ya.. i did change the blog design again!! wahahahaha
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wished u are with me 5:24 pm
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