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viewed;;[some1 pls bug lut to sleep now ]

lala.. geron postings at SACH...

tml i am like having a 8-4 shift at ttsh and i am still not asleep..

okay.. i dun wanna talk bout the time..
juz tat i have beening thinking in my mind... (duhh!! we use minds to think.. not our hands or some others parts)
tat if i am going to tell every1.. tat this 19 years 5 months and 26 days i have been living my life in lies...
will any1 believe??
so here i am saying i have lived my life of lies... almost everything of me are lies.. the lut u ppl noe are lies...
the lut u noe had been bluffing all u peeps out there..
the life he chose.. the path he took.. making his frens read him like a picture book...
a book easily understandable...

and the truth is.. i am tat type of book.. a book tat most ppl think tat its the easiest type of book to read...
but i am now going to tell u... tat picture books are the MOST difficult to read!!...

u want to noe why.. u may see the pic and understand.. but for ur info...
different ppl sees the picture and they have different views.. but most views will have those similar points...
but in those points.. picture worth a 1000 words... so are u sure tat the book truly mean like this??

i am tired.. its seems not tat i have been decieving others... i would say myself is included..

the usually bright lut... is he the real lut?? some how.. it was all a cover to cover this dark in him...
the usually happy-go-lucky lut?? plainly a cover for his lonely weakness...
the positive lut?? mask for him to think he hopelessness..
the bubblyness of lut?? to keep others going... but he nvr felt tat way for himself..
the heart of lut?? is now only filled with sorrow, fear and hurt...

if i had lied my yrs thru... all i can say is dun trust me...
somehow.. my trust to others have been depleted...
the trust i used to have.. seems all.. dropped..
if i lied about everything?? about the ppl i loved?? about the frens i cared??
if all was an act?? wad will u ppl do??
if lut is not the lut u ppl have known these days/months/years...
will u forgive him for his lies?? even he choose to lie more??
i only noe he wishes not to lie anymore..
but fears are stopping him...
he may seemed social... deep inside.. he is starting to hate ppl to be in his comfort zone...
so from u all to the lying lut..
if lut says he is doesnt want to have any frens.. will u believe him??
if lut says the person he truly loved was the 1 he truly hated.. will u believe??
if lut says he was nvr cool-tempered.. he was always angered when things ain't his way.. u believe??
if lut says he was lying bout everything.. believe??
if lut chooses not to care bout every single thing.. will u ppl care for him??
worry why lut is like this now?? wished he could talked to u??

dun bother telling me the answers.. the truth are truth... ur answers are urs...
u can choose to bugg me bout anything.. i only have 1 phase...
lut wishes for tat 1 person will care...

i bubblied around at,,
wished u are with me 12:05 am